Happy boy & Charlee

I don't think I could have a happier baby. This boy is ALL smiles...He is such a flirt... Here is a video of him squealing. I love it. Every day, it's something new.


My friend Hollie had her sugar Charlee.. she's really cute! I love babies. I can't believe Milo was ever that tiny!


Milo loved her! He must recognize her LOUD voice! haha :) xo


I also snapped a couple pictures of Aaron and milo..I thought these were cute. (if you didn't already see it on my photo blog.)



Anyway..thats wassup.

Things that make me feel better...

Things are really hard. I don't know if any of you feel the same way about your animals as I do about mine. I'm having such a hard time. The mornings are really sad to wake up without Beto.. Especially if Aaron isn't home to make me feel less homesick. That is the perfect word to describe how I feel w/ out Beto.. Homesick. Things just don't feel right. Baby cried and whimpered for an hour this morning. It's really affecting him.

Thankfully, I have this happy guy..



This retro fridge and dishwasher and stove would make me feel A LOT better. :) Who wants to buy it for me? I think the fridge alone is ONLY 3000 dollars. hahaha. Crap.
Maybe I'll try craigslist.
even though red is my color, I love the yellow one best!



I deserve them I think.

Beto

We had to put Beto down today. I held him as he died. It was by far the worst day of my life. I can not explain how depressed I am at the moment. I'm feeling so many mixed emotions. I honestly have never been this sad in my life. I feel like I just put to sleep a child of mine. That's how I feel about my dogs..they're a huge part in my life and in my family.. I can't believe we just did this. I feel like I needed to dedicate a post to him.
If you don't already know the reason, here's why we had to put him down. He has always been a snippy dog..and always territorial..I just put up with it because I love him so much. But when Milo came around, his aggression towards Milo wasn't acceptable. He would show his teeth and growl and lurch at him every time we got Milo too close. He would also pee all over Milo's stuff, and the other day I caught him trying to pee on him while I had Milo playing on the floor. Aaron and I had talked and prayed about it and we decided that we can't keep him. It's not safe for Milo, especially when he gets old enough to grab at Beto..His fingers would be toast.
So we thought about finding him a home first..But I wasn't going to lie to anyone, and once they heard he was territorial and needs to make his mark all over the house..he suddenly isn't "cute" anymore and we couldn't find him a home. I would never have put him in a shelter, because that would destroy him. He would be so depressed and stressed out..that would have been a terrible life for him. So we called the vet to ask if this is a situation worthy of putting him down. She said yes, of course, aggressive dogs are a huge reason people put their dogs down..So, as much as I love love love my Beto, I of course have to choose my child. I am so so sorry my Beto love. I feel like this whole thing is my fault and a reflection of how I raised you. I know chihuahuas are usually just like this..But I never ever imagined I would have to put him down. I feel just awful. I can't stop crying. I feel so guilty. I can't decide if I did the right thing or not..Aaron has been so great, he has been so sensitive to my feelings and making sure that I know we did this for the right reasons. I just feel so bad. I don't know how I will go on w/ out my Beto. 7 years with this dog.
I'm also feeling guilty for Baby. Our other dog. Beto and Baby have been together for almost 6 years. I just took away his pal! We are trying to make Baby as happy and distracted as we can.
I feel even MORE guilty to Milo. I can barely keep it together. I don't want my depression to rub off on him, but it's so hard for me to force a smile right now. I just want to curl up in a ball and push pause on the world for a couple days. This is the first time in my life that I haven't had an appetite, but I must eat so I can nourish my child. I need to pull it together for him.
I'm sure you are reading this and think I am a bit ridiculous.. I'm just not one of those people who view dogs as "just dogs" if you know me at all, my dogs really are like my children. I feel sick about this.
I love you so much Beto..
I will miss you every day my sweet sugar.








pals











I'm losing my mind without you.. I love you so much. I hope and pray that all dogs DO go to heaven. ;*) I'll be seeing you...

car.

Milo has gone from LOVING the car, to HATING it. I try to sit in the back seat with him and entertain him, I try putting toys on the handle to dangle, I've tried the mirror thing. NOTHING is working and it makes me DREAD driving even down the street with him. The other day, he wanted out so bad, that we discovered a new blood curdling cry. It was awful. He sniffled after we got him out for like an hour.

Any suggestions?

Remember when you liked your carseat Milo? Ya. Let's get back to that.

TOTALLY MADE MY NIGHT!

A-rod here.. Chels doesnt know I'm hacking in, but this totally made my night, so i had to blog it or whatever it is you girls call this. Let's see if I can figure this thing out.

I was coming home from scouts tonight, and as soon as I walked in the door, this is what I saw.
You can't really tell from this first picture, but while chels is playing the piano, Milo is watching t.v. so contently.

He's a funny boy! What a lazy bum.

my new favorite photo....

Is there a cuter smile in the world?
Doubtful.
I ADORE this picture.
If only I had caught it with my nice camera, instead of my cell phone.
I'm bummed about the grainy-ness.
Oh well. It's so cute. I could die!

addiction...

it's a time consuming thing. I feel like if I'm not entertaining Milo, I'm either doing 1 of four things...
1.blogging.
2.taking pictures.
3.eating oreos.
4.editing
I am obsessed right now! with all of those things! haha..As you may have read(and not acknowledged) in my last post..I started a project 365 blog..where I take a picture and post it every day for a year.
you should check it out..and even do one yourself! Project blogs are fun and inspiring! (dear mom...I'll take ANY kind of blogging from you..slacker.)
So..now that I created a new blog..It got me way motivated to be more into photography..So...I decided to take part in the "iheartfaces" weekly challenges..

But I didn't want to post it on this every week..SO I made ANOTHER blog dedicated only to that..if you are interested..you can look at that here.
So..I'm pretty addicted to photography right now..I've always loved it, but like I said..the blog has motivated me even more. So I stumbled across this site...and I must have these items...(I may or may not have already bought them. lol. its ok..inexpensive i promise..)
How about this bad-'A'-bowler bag for your camera? i had to have it. rad. in red. hahahaha

The other day, my client was telling me I am a bad mom for not having pictures up at my station of milo..well..I don't know how the girl i share with feels about me cluttering up the station with picture frames..so how perfect is this? It's a magnetic rope. COOL! skinny and easy..had to have it.(don't worry..only one.)

There are tons of cool things on that site.
AND because I love him so much...here is a few of jr..


first bath without mommy..he didn't like it so much. haha..



LOVE my milo man.